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“And just like the moon, you are still whole no matter what phase you are in.”

When I first started college, I was surrounded by promises.

You will find yourself in college. You will make the friends you will know for life here. This will determine your future. The freshman fifteen is real. Fear it. Don’t do drugs.

Needless to say, I haven’t done drugs. In fact, I’ve probably done worse. My sleep schedule needs help, I’m constantly looking for adrenaline, and, I have a crippling fear of failure that has me in a constant chokehold. While I don’t think college is the direct cause of all of this, I think it played a role in its development.

I believe that college is another step in your life. It doesn’t necessarily start or end with college, so why should you let it determine where you go?

Coming in, I was a Forensic Sciences major. It took about a month for me to realize that I was bored and had no interest in the field whatsoever. This is not to say I dislike forensics – huge kudos to everyone who goes into the field – but it’s not my thing.

Nutrition, however, was. I love it. There is so much that can be done with it scientifically and clinically. My parents were against it but I gotta say it worked out pretty well.

...mostly.

Me, nearly getting stabbed by my patient: “That’s not nice!”

Me, getting urinated on: “We didn’t need to do that.”

Me, getting stuck with a needle: “W��-”

Through it all, I love EMS more than I did before.

Outside of the educational perspective, college is also where I re-met my boyfriend. We had gone to CCD (Catholic school, basically) when we were kids, but we didn’t really stay in contact afterwards. A couple years later, he’s standing around at orientation. Three more, we’re in a happy relationship, with the intention of keeping it going forever.

If he can stand me for that long, lol. (I love you!) (Please turn the lights off).

I suppose my regrets boil down to these three things:

1. Not making more friends (albeit, I prefer quality > quantity).
2. Not setting as many boundaries with people as I should’ve. (Quitting my position as an LA embodies this).
3. Not being kinder to myself.
4. Not being myself.

These are pretty simple. For people entering college, I will tell you to get your money’s worth. Inquire about opportunities. Be yourself. Just be you, and everything will fall into place. No matter how much you may struggle with yourself sometimes, just remember that you are unlike everyone else. Kachow.

Overall, college has been really cool. There are so many memories, of which this blog has kept track of as the years progressed. Whether it be research, my microwave battles, or just sobbing in my bed, I’m happy to say that I've been able to be vulnerable with all of you.

I love you.

Upcoming on the blog, expect some last-minute adventures, an awards ceremony, and a final goodbye.

With peace, love, and peanut butter,
Beatrice